I am stuck here a victim of my own thoughts. Searching my mind for the best and most reliable method of suicide. Wishing I could sleep to escape for just a bit. Funny thing is at the same time I refuse to sleep. I'm on a short path to self destruction. I can't really eat, my stomach isn't really tolerant of food. Nerves I guess. There is nothing left for me here. The only reason not to end my pain is the pain it will cause. How long can I sit in pain to spare others theirs? I don't think it will be long.