Last night i had a dream where my step-dad was beating the crap out of me so the first chance i got i ran away the first chance i got and went to a friends house. there was 4 people there playing a war game. they all ignored me isif i wasn't there. i looked at the screen and in the blink of an eye i was in the game. i dropped to the ground to avoid being shot. i could hear the bullets flying overhead. as i looked up i saw 3 soldiers charging towards me firing machiene guns. the ground was being shot up infront of me and the trail of bullets was coming towards me. then i was shot in the head and body about 5 times, my body was twiching uncontrolibly. my sight and hearing faded away and people fell around me. everything faded into black and then i woke up in a cold sweat. in the past week i have been getting dreams of being killed (being hung, ripped apart by zombies) and in every dream i have felt completely helpless and death has felt inevitable. a part of me looks forward to these dreams. i have never had dreams of my own death before this week, and i have been told in the past that you cannot dream of your own death. if that is true then am i just fucked up? or are these dreams just my psyche attempting to free bad thoughts?