That's how I feel. I'm drifting in this life with nothing to hold on to. I'm currently thinking of how I can make sure I die and make it as light as possible, like a feather. You see, I've decided to make it my life-long project. Isn't it ironic? I'm starting to slowly eradicate myself from this world, little by little. After I have fully eradicated myself from this world, I believe it's easiest to think of a suicide since no one can say such insensitive things like "Think about the people who will be left griefing". After I'm through with eradicating myself from this world completely, there will be no one to grief over me - and thus no one can accuse me of being incosiderate or selfish. I've actually figured it all out for myself. I will stop talking to people (how strange, considering that I'm talking to people right now...), I will get rid of all my former relationships just to make sure that there are as few people I'm attached to - and who are attached to me, too - as possible. After I've done all that, I can safely assume that there will be as few people sobbing over me as possible... But yeah, maybe I am sobbing over this, maybe I hoped to tell someone about this so that I could, I don't know, just make it all easier for myself maybe. But it had to be someone other than my family to whom I would tell it, because I know that if I ever told them, they would make sure I could never go through with my plans as long as they were still alive. So telling someone completely unknown to me, is easy.