Howdy All, You'd think several handles of vodka would be enough to do someone in - I got severely drunk last night (high tolerance, still awake). Took pills and smoked out to stop convulsions and keep stomach contents intact (lots and lots of pills, bought a 3mo. supply from someone, over two times the LD50 for the meds). Wasn't even my plan to die - just sort of a spur of the moment thing - my mind isn't right I know - but I feel like I have to end it all, the urge to die is overwhelming - I'm doing everything in my power, it just ain't working. Wish this was easier - tired of taking peoples time and resources trying to reach this end - about to do <method> that works for sure, but I have a date for it, not going to do it any earlier (if I don't die before then).