Claire & I have just returned from a bingeing session. We left the car at home and used our concessionary bus passes to go on a pub crawl. We each drank ten pints and Claire is currently on the bed drooling a little. We have kissed & cuddled and now she is sleeping I am stroking her sleek black long hair and kissing her purdy little face. Before Claire fell asleep she told me she loved me & I told her I loved her and relaxed she fell asleep feeling safe in my arms. I often have to hug her to make her feel safe as she is extremely insecure & scared of life & her abusive past which I repeatedly tell her she is free from as I will care for her & love her Does anyone else drink excessively to feel calmer and relaxed?