I have started to drink when I feel sad. I know that this is only avoiding the situation but sometimes I think it's better that dealing with the thoughts that go through my head when I'm sad. I don't like the person I become when I'm sad. I'm like a child scared and alone begging for help to the point where I just don't want to ever feel again. But if I drink I don't have to be that person... I know it's wrong but I don't want to go back to that dark place. I'm scared of what might happen if I do.