hi, sorry this is my first post here but i dont know what else to do all i can think about is <mod edit-gentlelady-methods>. its all i want to do. i know i have enough to kill me and i want to do it now. part of me wants to stop and take a step back and not do it, the other just wants to down the whole bottle. i don't know who to talk to and i'm so scared of tomorrow, i can't let tomorrow come, this is all i can do. please help. i don't know what to do.