I've been drinking again.. stole some alc from my moms stash in the garage^^ I knwo it's not right etc. but I just needed it.. I feel so very low at the moment and alcohol make sme forget about all that.. It makes everything seem less important for a while. I don't know what it is exactly but it feels bette rthan being sober ^^ I know drinking on your own is very lame, but I actually enjoy it more alone, this way I can't do or say stupid things... this msg not included I want to SI I have nothing to stop me but my conscience. I don't knwo whether that will do this time..