So I have a suicidal friend who has a long history of suicide attempts. Recently she has spent 5 months in hospital, after many many suicide attempts and trying to find herself help. She's been out for about 3 months and recovering, on medication. She's back on it again though. Today I told her I was going away on vacation for 4 days. She freaked out, said there was nothing left to live for without me here, and said that she was going to buy a bottle of pills. I haven't heard from her since. I had to be sent home from work because I was crying on the job. I just.. it's been hours and nothing.