I'm drowning in my own bullshit. All the lies I tell myself to bother staying around are wearing thin. I came back here for a reason, not just for friends or support... I'm a selfish fucking pig like that. I'm losing it and there's no fucking hope for me. An abomination like me shouldn't waste air, time and resources on this earth anymore. Dramatic, but true. I'm typing now because the greedy sensation thief inside wants to win over for a few more shots of pleasure before I check out... But in my heart, I know the way this has to go... I can never be right. NEVER medicine can never equal nature.