Hi me84, I see you have been a member here for some time now, so its a pleasure to meet you. I cant pretend to have all the answers or a cure because that would be a lie.
So where are you at with therapy and meds, are you getting any I guess is the question I am trying to ask. You know how this place operates, its all confidential and anonymous so you can talk freely here.
I have to take beta blockers for my anxiety. My heartrate just goes off the scale, so I have to make sure I try and keep it as low as possible. But when I am in a panic attack, thats easier said than done. I have no idea where you are in the world. I know in the USA meds are very expensive and a lot of people cannot afford them.
Have you been in hospital at all for what you are going through? I have no idea about your situation, I cannot even begin to imagine what you are going through. I wont patronise you and pretend I know whats its like, I dont and never will. But you can always talk to us here at SF. We are open 24/7. I am UK based, so not always available to others around the globe. But if you want to PM me anytime here or Start a Conversation, please feel free to do so. I know in the real world you feel alone and isolated, but you dont need to feel that way when you come to SF.