Howdy Y'all, May not be around too much longer. Just emptied a couple fifth's of whisky - not even feeling drunk (Liver must have adapted). Listening to my favorite song Spiritual by Johnny Cash - feeling the urge to run down to the train tracks right now and pass out there (at least I won't feel anything). Not sure where I'm headed, just the pain and sorrow has eaten away at me, nothing is left inside of me (I'm defeated) - can't bear all this weight on my own, it's destroyed me. Hope you all can find some solace or peace in your lives.