I have abused a lot of drugs in my time. Smoked them. Snorted them. Injested them. One thing that I never did was inject them. I'm so grateful that when I had the opportunity, I turned it down. The things that confuses me is that I dream about it. I fantasize about it. I actually day dream about shooting heroin. I've never used heroin. I know a lot of people who do or did. I've lost count of the people I know who are dead of an od. My dreams are perverse. I know that I'm self-destructive. I know I love drugs. I know that I hurt myself to get through the day. But why this? Does anyone else have dreams like this?