Dunno if I need someone to talk to.. I just.. am so stressed.. and so tired of repeating my story though.. been tears in my eyes past few days along with anger / rage.. My computer been having issues.. Can't get into chat because of it.. Causing some Java problem.. Mostly just been avoiding life and playing video games or going out to groups to avoid everything while I wait for things to improve.. I don't really have much support right now.. My therapist was going to refer me to a trauma center.. but he hasn't referred me to a new temp therapist yet.. I get my support right now from my friend who lives with me and at the groups we go to for people who are also dealing with similar things.. But it's difficult in the nights like these were a certain conversation has come up and caused an enormous amount of stress to overcome me.. and besides my friend who feels a similar stress I feel I have almost no one.. Yeah, I've thought about calling support lines.. And I've tried now and again to talk online.. But I find it almost counter-productive when I have to re-explain everything and still continue to feel as if no one can really understand unless they are here and can see how I am struggling / it is affecting me and those around me.. and what is going on.. I've had maybe only once or twice found people I'm talking to whom I feel are understanding to what I am expressing.. But for the most part maybe I'm just beyond words anymore.. I don't even know what to do or think anymore.. Its become an almost constant avoidance game..