I just don't see how I can keep going on like this. I feel so much emotional pain all the time, it is a great challenge to survive the day without having a complete breakdown. I have no support system. The people who are supposed to be there for me are ditching me the time I need them the most. My mother just got done telling telling me she is fucking done with all my bullshit and that I'm full of shit and she has her own problems to deal with. I want to die. I see a therapist weekly, am on meds, nothing is getting better. I'm eating healthier, working out, doing everything I am supposed to do, but I'm only getting worse. I feel pathetic rambling on about how much I hurt, but no one has ever listened and I need to get it out somewhere. I'm only 17 years old, and I feel like I'm freaking 90. I just want all the pain to go away.