Sometimes it feels like even when I try to be positive and more confident - there's someone who doesn't want to allow me to be because it doesn't fit with them. And me being me, usually accommodates everyone else and forgets about myself. On top of that - I get told I'm lazy because I don't do enough of what's asked of me, even if it is things that should realistically be minimal/bare basics. I'm just tired of bothering to be myself. Because right now, do I really know who I am, and/or who I want to be? Going into a new year, looking at new challenges to get me through more days of my life, but I'm not sure how i'm gonna withstand the constant onslaught I get. Verbal abuse happens at work so often, it's like there's almost no point me being there. Do I just want to give up? Evidently there's so much weighing me down, but what it is - I haven't discovered of yet as I'm still feeling a high weight of expectation that I'm just unable to fill. Urgh. Advice would be considered - but I'm not sure I'd be responsive to it at the moment.