I didn't know what to put for my title... I'm Liam, I'm 16 and live in Scotland. I split up with my girlfriend about a month ago, she was everything to me and when we split up I just fucking lost it... I went crazy - my parents started arguing, I failed 5 out of 5 of my exams, I haven't been able to sleep much. But most of all, every single fucking day I see her at school and it hurts because I love her. I originally came to this website because I had gotten over these feelings and had some hope for life, but now I just can't do it... I felt ready to help others through what I'd experienced, how can I now? Nothing in my life seems to be glowing, everything gets dimmer. I mean, I know that there are people with far worse problems in their life and being rejected by a girl they love, but as selfish as it is, I don't care right now. I don't exactly want to die, but I do :unsure: I want to have a good life, but I just feel so tired, fed up and pissed off at life that I just don't want it ya know? I'm usually not a coward but I want to die quickly, <Mod Edit - methods> I don't want to end up as a vegetable. So I find myself climbing a hill that doesn't have a peak. I want to die, right now, but I can't. So what can I fucking do? It's selfish towards my family etc, but none of them have tried to help me, so why should I care for them now? I don't understand it! I just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up to this, I mean... how can one damn girl ruin my life so much that I don't want it anymore?