Last year around september, I met back up with someone I missed very much, it had been 13 years, and I found her on myspace, so we got back together. Aside from one time that I raised my voice on her which I apologized for, there was nothing that went wrong between us until it came to our last date. When me and my friends got there for the double date we had planed, Jan was just looking out into space and when she has that look on her she usually is not in a social mood..she was not talking to me, but she was her friend..whispering right in front of me..then after we all got done eating, we went to circuit city where the girls parted from the guys, and them mins later she had her friend dump me for her, the later that night Jan sent me a message in myspace, and it was an apology more or less, no explanation as to why. After months of looking over everything in my head, I have finally saw I did nothing wrong..its just NOW I don't think I have the strength in me to get to to a woman again..like that. but being alone right now is really hurting me..I hate it..