I have these constant feelings and thoughts of "back in the day". I'm in my 40's and don't know why I'm still here. The thoughts from little kid to college just replay as a much happier time for me. I don't understand why I'm not happy..I have the greatest wife, two beautiful girls, and a precious grandson. My personal goals have come up short. I once was king of the castle in the musician dept and now I don't know what I'm doing here...going through the motions I guess.