I've been doing a lot of thinking about dying and what it may be like. I wonder if it's the same feeling you have when you are so tired you can't keep your eyes open...no matter how hard you try. That wouldn't be so bad. Just letting go and then.....nothing. God knows I haven't anything to really stay alive for. I get very little satisfaction from being alive, in fact I'm bored with life...I've been trying to make changes in my life for over 16 years, but I just can't seem to change anything. Each day runs into the last...each month into the last month :sad:. Maybe there IS no grand purpose or meaning to life after all. I know there isn't one for my life. Maybe death is actually a reward for putting up with life! All I know is, I'm so fucking tired of being alive!! Tired, bored, useless and meaningless...that's me. Can death be any worse?