For those who want to die, but don't want to commit suicide, don't you ever think perhaps you will suddenly die of chance. For example, you die in a car accident suddenly and unexpected. Or you are in a store and a gunman comes in and starts to shoot the place up, killing you. Yeah, I want to die. I got no real friends, girls reject me, crappy job and I got cancer. All at 27 almost 28 years old. But that thought which was placed into my head "will go to hell" is stuck. As far as Im concerned, I am already in hell. Yeah, I hope I get robbed and shot to death. How much more and longer am I going to get pushed before I make a statement. A statement which will cost others. And chances are it might be too late to turn around. I am damaged goods. Maybe I can just wait until the cancer fully grows and kills me.