not even professionals can cure themselfs. but your are already talking to us here so you are seeking for help. theres nothing wrong with needing help you have alot to carry upon your shoulders and you dont have to do it by yourself. you cant 'ride it out' its not a broken arm. it can only go away trhough therapy which you have already started! you cant be strong all the time, its ok to not being able to cope at times. and i mean you havent talked to your psychs in a while so its very undertsnadable why you feel this way now.
you feel its too overwhelming now, but its the way to make you feel better. i hope you can find the strength to ask for help. your friend is not a professional so she wont be able to give you the help you need.
try to make yourself do it hun, thats what you really need.
xx