It would be very convenient if I would die tonight. I am heading for a colonoscopy on Friday, and am afraid of this one. I have had some episodes of bleeding and a lot of pain over the last few months. At previous colonoscopies I had not been dealing with this. And I have been told that my colon is not in its usual position. So death would solve all. I would not have to drink the 'drano' to clean my colon, go through the process, or deal with whatever they find. Don't worry. I will not hurt myself. But I sure wish suicide was a more natural act, and that there was a certain, painless and easy way out. But there isn't. So off the the hospital on Friday.