I'll be 30 next september. I was told I've been in dysphoria probably since very little, due to traumas and complex PTSD. I have BDP now. I wish I just had the courage to <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods>. I've never known what you call happiness. I feel happy things, but it's distorted due to BDP. I guess at best I'm called an artists. But I'm a freak I know it.