I feel like I have gone senile.....several decades early. I can barely organize my thoughts anymore. My mind feels like a barren desert. I can't think of anything to say, barely. My ability to form sentences has severely deteorated. Trying to navigate the outside world seems like an insurmountable task. I don't have intellectual thoughts anymore, I think in a paranoid, depressed mindset. It's like I'm already dead, and my soul is travelling through hell (not that I believe in that, it's the best comparison I could come up with). Suicide would be a step up for me. I don't know what to do anymore.