Is there anyone else whose primary reason to become very thin is not feelings of wanting to be beautiful, but wanting to punish yourself? OR in the long run to make yourself sick? Not being able to feed yourself... I don't know... just feelings of anger The thing I do is go all day, 7 am to 7 pm without food. No food at all. It makes me dizzy and blurry-eyed all the time. I have to walk around a lot and be clear-headed during the day. I manage. When I get back home in the evenings I eat crackers and fruit and water, just so I'll be able to sleep. I feel that since I've become single and isolated it's a punishment to myself. I don't get hungry so much anymore. Eating isn't a social thing anymore. I don't care enough about myself and the thought of eating when I don't want to makes me sick by itself I wish I would have some kind of diabetic shut down from it that just came on suddenly and took me away. This will probably not happen.