I have been doing juice fasts so much for up to 15 days at a time but averaging 4 or 5 days. Then I do eat not because I am hungry but because I like the look and taste of the food. I am thinking that I am just feeding my taste buds. I also do this more when I am stressed. Then I start to feel guilty about it, so then I just drink juice, and not eat which can be for quite a few days. Then I start to feel happier whilst fasting. I seemed to have started a cycle. I am still in healthy weight range. But I have lost a kilo a day, sometimes whilst juice fasting!!! When I see progress such as less weight, or thinner thighs, or flatter stomach. When I look at myself I like to be able to see certain things so I can still tell that I am not getting fat again, such as my stomach muscles, and my hip bones and I like to be able to feel my back pelvic bones on either side of my back bone. I used to be slightly overweight then I went on a diet and lost a heap of weight in a couple of months, now I want to make sure I don't go back to where I was. Once I go back on to normal food, I can't eat very much because I get bloated due to my stomach shrinking, or I get excessively thirsty. Recently I have gained weight as my clothes are lot tighter. That sends me into panic mode. I don't have an eating disorder as my weight is in the healthy zone. I don't make myself throw up. I saw a psychiatrist today about suicidal thoughts and grief and she talked about anti depressants but I am terrified about going on those due to side effects of weight gain. Anyone else with similar?