well. im a diagnosed ednos. ive also done time in an ED unit for anorexia / ednos - restrictive..... at the moment. im at my hw. well. i WAS at my hw. i dont know what i am now. but im on a rollercoaster with food. one minute im eating everything in sight (and i mean EVERYTHING). the next. im starving myself and refusing meals. i mean, to give a perfect example, today i decided that i was happier when i was starving (ie - fasting). so the nurse said to me "are you going to eat something" . and my response was "i didnt eat this morning, im not going to eat this afternoon and im definantly not going to eat tonight." lets just say my smarta**ed comments dont go far here. i just keep having nurses come up to me with food. which im disposing of. im execptionally suicidal at the moment. im in here for major depression / anxiety / panic disorders. mostly the depression though. my ed isnt supposed to be a factor. they shouldnt be trying to feed me. but im so confused about how one day i can eat like a normal person. and the next, im starving myself and wishing i could keep it up for days..... i have a feeling my ed is out of control again. but i dont want to end up in the ED unit again..... which will happen if i admit to food problems.... i guess im just looking for people who understand. and some advice on how to keep my intake at a reasonable level. for me and for the "professionals". xx.