So...hot guy, first kiss (I know..I am 18..) He's so awesome. We've been talking as well, and he's just so lovely. Kind, funny, sweet, articulate. But I'm scared about if it turns into more than this. I have stupidly low self esteem (though I hide this fact), am scared of intimacy due to years of abuse, have lots of big, red raised scars all over my legs, and don't think I'm worth someone so lovely. I don't want him to see through my cheerful side and see the stupid little pathetic child inside. :sad: Dunno. I feel stupid even typing this. It's just another crush, I'm only young, I shouldn't feel I need to be in a relationship to be happy. But I don't want to let go of that possibility that we could make something of it.. Sorry. Stupid childish rant over :unsure: Anyone have any ideas? Lol. I'm so confused.