Drinking a cup or Corona that I snuck from my uncle's refrigerator, and feeling elevated. Not drunk- I can still think clearly- but just feeling like I DON'T GIVE A SHIT HA HA HA. I'm so obsessed about drinking now at this age, and I try to get a hold of it whenever I can, so I don't want to imagine myself 2 to 4 years from now, if I make it. Like- whoa- look at that girl who passed out on the street! Is she a hobo? :sad: Yeah, I admit, I'm a coward. I don't want to imagine my life couple years from now- or imagine my life at all. I don't think that I will ever lead a satisfactory life. At the very least I'll be struggling to live in the worst area of Compton or something and/or leeching off my dad. God I feel like shit. I pray that someone-anyone- will just come by and knock me over the head with a bat. That way, I'll lose my conscience and maybe even my life. Or at the very least, I'll lose my memory. I have half a mind to purposely place myself in dangerous situations.