Another thread from me, I bet you all are just so excited. Anywayyyy. To be honest I don't think this site is helping anything, I don't think it ever has, sure, it's a great site to vent, but other than that, nothing. I feel like if you aren't an attention seeker or whatever, you get no support, and that's fucked up. But enough 'bout this site. Really, M, D, as soon as I'm 18 I'm out, I'll live on the streets if I have to, but I'm over this with you two, and I'm done with S calling me a freak, etc, him and his anger problems, I can't even say anything back to him because M you freak out, and D you think I cause all of the problems. I thought you said you were going to quit drinking? I guess not, another one of your failed attempts at being normal. You went for how long? A week? And then it was back to your fucking bottle that you're drowning yourself in. And please M, D, stop asking me everyday about when I'm going to be normal again, because I'm not going to fucking be normal. Honestly, how many times have I told you guys that the medicine I've been on since December, is not helping?! I've been so down recently, and you guys haven't even noticed, I cut myself, yesterday, really badly, and I have to go to the beach Saturday. :laugh: I'm such a stupid c.u.n.t. I cut knowing that I was going to the beach. But to be honest, it's the only way I know how to cope with anything, and I can't even talk to people about how I'm feeling. I can only type to this site, and that's pathetic, I can't talk to anyone irl because they will send me away. I am a pathetic person. Friends don't know, family doesn't know, no one knows! I am basically keeping myself alive by cutting and drugs, and that is so pathetic, I'm basically always high, it's lovely, but it's not enough, I need stronger, harder stuff, and I know where to get it, hell, I've gotten it plenty of times, but I can't use it as often as I like because I can't be addicted to more than one drug, that would just be idiotic and ridiculous. But whatever, because I know people are just going to skim right over this, not realizing that I'm basically pouring my soul into this, but they feel the need to judge me without knowing me.