how the hell do I even suppose to bring it up with my dad anymore, he's been... sorta ... 'better' this last year or so. I don't trust him ... still.. I feel horrible.. why can't I just get over it.. it wasnt that bad... I don't blame him for getting so mad.. I'm a horrible excuse for a daughter... I deserved it.. I must make his life hell... now I'm such a horrible person I can't even get past what happened like a year ago... I hate this... I guess I shouldnt bring it up with him.. he doesnt even know it effects me... how would that not effect anyone.. god.. stupid. sorry for the rambling.. I doubt it makes much sense..