Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by emilyroselovesu, Nov 11, 2010.

  1. emilyroselovesu

    emilyroselovesu Well-Known Member

    my worst fear is throwing up.
    whenever i get a stomach ache i want to die.
    id rather die than throw up
    i get stomach aches everyday
    therefore i have bad thoughts everyday

    im afraid to eat most of the time
    im afraid to leave the house for long periods of time because im afraid my stomach ache will get worse and i will throw up in front of people
    i cry everyday because of the thoughts of dying.
    its just a stomach ache. everyone gets them. why do i have to take it to an extreme level?

    when i have a stomach ache my mood and thoughts completely change. IT IS PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO THINK POSITIVE WHEN I FEEL SICK. no matter what i do to get my mind off of it, nothing helps. all i think about is dying.

    when i want to die i think i should die. that im a mistake and no one wants me here. i am a waste of space. everyone is sick of me being around. i dont do anything good for the world.
  2. Juliaa

    Juliaa Well-Known Member

    How come you have stomachs everyday?
    Have you've gone to the doctor to see what it is?
    It seems very serious.
    I'm sorry you're going through this :hug:
  3. emilyroselovesu

    emilyroselovesu Well-Known Member

    yes i have gone to the doctor. they think im doing it to myself. like anxiety wise. which might be true but they just told me to stop worrying and such. thing is you cant just stop worrying!