I've thought alot about the price of emotion. Yes, with it there is the potential to be happy. But, there is also the potential for much, much suffering. With all the defenses I built, my capacity to enjoy things in life has dwindled, but that's not so with the negative emotions. It seems like the negative emotions are always there, under the surface. Without effort they appear out of nowhere (which is natural, granted), but happiness seems to be a daunting challenge. It never comes naturally, always requiring a high level of maintence, and can be crashed in an instant. The darker emotions seem to take an eternity to conquer. An then they're waiting for you as soon as you turn around. So I've come to the conclusion that emotion...just isn't worth it. *sigh* I should just get a lobotomy.