ive given up on life. its disgusting and ugly and unhealthy. every day i eat whatever unhealthy shit i want. i eat even when im not hungry. i eat whenver i get a burst of emotion. i feel so sick and tired right now, i havent showered in a few days. i should shower then sleep but i found myself ordering food again. i keep wasting so much money. ive gained so much weight now, it makes me sick and i dont know how to stop.