Ok. This is gonig to sound quite weird. I don't really understand it myself but it really is affecting me a lot now. Every time I go to hospital I walk down corridors or sit in waiting rooms and I get the most strangest euphoric, melancholic, longing pining bloody feelings I can handle. I want to be part of it all. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me but I have to spend enough time at hospitals. I want to burst into tears everytime i'm there and beg for something I don't even know. I feel I need to be there right now. To not miss a thing. Sometimes I think about hurting myself just so I can go there. I've thought about getting a job there but i'm in no fit state to at the moment. Has anyone else had anything similar although I think I will be alone on this one ?