All I can do is cry,cry and cry. I've been crying for 3 hours today. The nausea from anxiety is so bad I have vomited 6 times. I haven't slept properly in days. I can't stand feeling like this. If it weren't for my niece who I love with all my heart, I'd make it my business to check out of life. I never thought I could be hurting this badly. I was doing good-ish ? (well compared to now) and I messed it all up yesterday.I can't stand feeling this way, I don't deserve to be alive, I'm a horrible person. I called the samaritans a while ago, they were helpful but its not enough.