I've been friends with this girl for a long time, and she's always been harsh. When we were little she'd physically hit me or roughly grab my arm. As we grew older these stopped but the verbal abuse is still present. I don't have many friends and due to my social anxiety I feel like a bit of an outcast in society. I'm afraid if I confront her I'll lose her forever, but I can't keep living like this. She tells me I'm mean and awkward. She's always making fun of me. She tells me to kill myself. I don't think she's serious about that last part... but it still hurts. She always has to get her way and doesn't care how I feel or listen when I try to open up to her. She asks me for favors that she would never do for me in return. But in an odd way she's been kind of good for me. She has gotten me to try new things, she gets me out on the weekends, but she is also very hurtful. She has a lot going on in her life. Her parents are splitting up, they're having some money troubles, her dad has heart disease.... I don't want to hurt her, or make her feel like she has no one. But that's what she does to me... I have no one but her. I'm afraid what will happen to me if I push her away... Has anyone else gone through this? What did you do about it? What do you suggest that I do? And why?