The last few days have been overwhelming and frustrating. I got it thrown in my face that I don't live on my own. I'm supposed to show respect to people in my family older than me despite their constant bullshit and any setbacks or shortcomings i have gets thrown in my face or held over my head to the point where I can't even feel comfortable or sleep well at night. it's never going to get better and I don't like living anymore....though that's been more or less the case for a few years now. Sorry for yet another post like this.