Hi. I'm new here, I guess obviously. I look forward to meeting people. I hope. A little background on me: I'm 43, almost 44, I suffer from complex PTSD symptoms (out of control at the moment, including depression and severe anxiety, with suicidal ideation), and hormonal upheavals due to peri-menopause. I just got out of the hospital from a coronary embolism scare, which caused me to quit smoking after 30 years, a month ago. I'm dealing with a narcissistic father who triggers me greatly as he's always been my primary abuser, and now I'm in Washington, alone (isolated, they like you like that) with no support system, and having to be his support (they like it like that). He's holding my housing and vehicle over my head, as they're in his name - a convoluted "gift" to me to get me up here with him, when I got out of the hospital. So many, many upheavals. I'm really scared, very alone, no support system (though I've been trying to get help), and having chest pains again (probably due to the anxiety of everything, but who knows?). Oh, and I have an emotional support assistance dog that I take care of - which makes actually being actively suicidal impossible for me. Anyhow, that's about it. It's actually a lot longer and more in depth than all of this, but I didn't feel like writing it all out - that'd be a novel. Hi.