Emotionally Tormented Urges overcome caution Action interferes with thought Silence seems to produce more information than a stream of questions. Confusion dominates my thoughts Uncomfortable with an uncertain future Longing to forget times long past Pondering the emptiness I so feel I have succumb to the stresses And it shows no mercy; Vague physical discomforts, Feeling unloved, insecure, And emotionally blocked. Efforts don't fit my expectation to put one's trust in anything A critical flaw I cannot fix constraining me Power issues erupt within And a choice may well be impulsive I'm on a fool's errand I believe - then doubt. Images clouded by idealism Feelings of hurt and distrust Now judgement tempered Thought becomes obscure and unusual I battle within Frustrated, hopelessly misunderstood Overburdened in this wasteful life Simply the negative, and the delusional The brain turning in many directions Convinced it's from within But I am not coming to conclusion Not even sure anyone's interested. For instinct should have known They were not as sincere, as they seemed at first Personal boundaries - defiantly violated. Humiliated, degraded and shamed Now impacted by lack of emotional control Time has become of essence, opportunity not far Exhaustion is often results from failure to plan And a strong feeling to process thought Mentally holding onto impressions and experience Viewing only my own circumstances, my worth Thinking, talking, evaluating, and dreaming Being mindful that whatever is genuine Will be hijacked in counterfeit schemes. A motive behind their action, not my own Disenchanting me, tempting me No one will ever understand why No matter what I leave behind, That I will always understand I left that part for myself.