Possibly triggering? I'm not sure what is and what isn't anymore. To me, almost everything is triggering. I really don't care about anything anymore. What I look like? Don't care. If I eat or not? Don't care. Grades? Don't care. Self esteem? Don't care. Family? Don't care. Being yelled at? Don't care. Being ignored? Don't care. Relapsing? Don't care. Don't care, don't care, don't care. Nothing matters. Was recovering from depression, was finally getting better, now all of a sudden another relapse. Can't count how many I've in the past few weeks, don't care. Suicidal again. Don't care. Not gonna tell anyone my problems again. Probably won't talk for a while anyway. Just listening to music all day everyday. Nothing helps. Only thing keeping me here is music. Only thing that makes me actually go to school is my closest friends. Only have about two right now. No one else cares what happens to me, anyway. Won't tell them anything much anymore. Headaches everyday now, won't go away. Medication doesn't work. Can't sleep. Can't stay awake. Don't care. No more anchors, all thrown away now, except for music and my closest friends. No one reads this? Don't care.