I tried desperately to not exceed the deadline I set myself of making sure I didn't see the light of day after my 21st a year ago and with my 22nd birthday coming up I'm afraid to say I feel like a bigger loser for not managing to find a way out. I feel cheated about my life in general. I've got a job I'm very content with and my friends promised that once I found my feet I'd have no trouble in finding someone who makes me happy and whom wouldn't hurt me yet the few girls I've dated lately all appear to be out to cut my heart out. Now my friends are trying to kid me and make out its something I'm doing or looking for sub-consciously. I've been depressed for an awful long time and nobody takes the situation seriously. I don't want to hear nobody ever say "don't look and she'll come along soon" again!! More factors about my life actually cause me great depression but I just don't feel like discussing them.