I'm 20 years old, and all I feel is an overwhelming amount of pain and emptiness right now. I'm not in school because for the longest time I wanted to kill myself everyday because I was in school, I have not been hired once in the past year and my parents say that they will kick me out of the house if I don't get a job or go back to school. Part of me doesn't really care right now. My best friend is gone for a year, studying abroad and I can't explain how I feel to my family because when I do they get mad at me for telling them. All I want right now is to die. I now regret my time spent enjoying video games as a kid because I don't know how to go out and meet new people to hang out with which leaves me stuck here in my room silently crying and wishing that I would finally give in and kill myself. At this point I don't know what to do. Nobody is hiring me, I don't have many people to talk to, I desperately want to go meet new friends but don't know how and the pain and emptiness are ruining all attempts at trying. Does anybody have a suggestion for dealing with these feelings? Meeting new people? Anything would be appreciated, I just don't want to feel this emptiness anymore.