Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by FrainBart, Feb 25, 2012.

  1. FrainBart

    FrainBart Staff Alumni

    My dearest daughter,

    I've written this away, to hide my shame from the world. I want to be strong for you. I want to fight for you. I want to keep you strong and safe, away from the evil in this world. I love you so much princess. I know one day you will understand, the pain I go through everyday, just to keep strong for you. Please dont hate me for what I have done, I know they weren't the best decision, but they were the safest.

    I just want to protect you, I wish I could have been protected, but the worlds evil got to me too soon. I know one day you will hate me, it is always the way.

    Mummy is weak. She doesn't want to be. She wants to be strong for you, to help you, to car for you.

    I have been hurt so many times, that talking won't save me, but I hope you will. You have kept me going. Your smile your laugh, your cuddles. Each day I live, I live for you. I know it's so selfish of me, to use you like this princess, But I need to fight for you. Without you here I would die.

    No matter what, I will keep going... I will try to keep going, I will try so hard, just for you. To show to you that I can be strong.

    One day, my child, you will be proud of me. for how long I have kept going.
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    my duaghter keeps me here too hun i hope you will always be here for your princess who will always love you and need you
  3. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Your daughter can be proud that you have sacrificed so much to keep her safe...none of us does things exactly the way we want to...sometimes, it is making a decision from two bad alternatives...we do our best, and that is all we can do...please be kinder to yourself as it is clear, you are such a loving and caring mother
  4. FrainBart

    FrainBart Staff Alumni

    Thank you for the kind words, but I know them not to be true. I have let her down so much. She has been hurt so much, all because I was not good enough to keep her safe.