A sad reality just hit me tonight as I fought with the one person I had in this whole world. The idea that all people, everyone in this whole entire puss filled earth is going to disappoint me at one time or another. Of course I knew this, I just always help onto hope that my one person would never hurt me or cause me pain like he has. Most will say that this is a lot to place on one man's shoulders, that my expectations could never be met. They're right, I will always be miserable in the end, I will always be hurt or let down or forgotten at one point or another. That's how the world works, that's just how man kind is. And that is why I have to go, that is why I can't stay here anymore. I can't handle the fact that I drive everyone away. I can't continue in this society with the expectation and feelings I have. It's just not healthy, for me or my so called loved ones. I want to lay in a warm bath with my music playing and just go into a never ending sleep, a sleep that can protect me from all the pain people cause me. I want to be in a place where I don't have to worry about how I look or what I say. I want to be free from all this. So that's why I end it.