I can't go on like this anymore. I am so fucking lonely and miserable; I don't want to live like this. I never will be able to get better and I am so sick of trying. Day in and day out I sit a little room, by myself trying to think of a reason to live, and all I ever come up with are reasons I would be better off dead. My life is never going to get better; it will only get harder and more painful so what is the point for me to keep moving. After years of trying I am finally ready to give up and I found a way to end it once and for all. I have always been a failure in life but hopefully, it will all be over if I can have this one success.