For a while now I've changed my life around to reduce distractions & non-essential stimulation. This causes me to sit & face myself a lot, what I'm finding is an endless supply of hatred & anger coming out. Every few minutes my entire body sort of twists & squirms under this intense feeling of a messed-up emotion that we don't have a word for; i don't know what to call it, but the closest description is a union of hatred/anger with something else I can't describe. It just keeps coming back over and over again, forever, it feels like i'm in a screwed-up state 100% of the time though, and every few minutes it just explodes, but it's habitually repressed. Sometimes my head will start to hurt from all of this, but i endure all of it.