Endless Pain

Discussion in 'Poet's Corner' started by Cute_Angel_Xx, Jan 30, 2011.

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  1. Cute_Angel_Xx

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    Endless pain, is all that I deserve
    The hatred with in me the hatred I recieve,
    Makes me more and more angry
    Cold heart tears, tear down my cheek
    Crying slowly in hope to sleep 4ever.
    Endless pain endless nightmares
    Haunt me everyday
    I am so scared I can barely go on
    My face drained tired of crying
    No more silence
    You tell me I am worthless
    All I can do is smile and agree
    You tell me black people should go
    I just look with confusion

    Big bully, Big bully
    As strong as you may think you are
    Your body screwd up
    Your life you say is perfect
    So I ask with confident
    they turn around and walk away
    Until another day arrivees.

    Endless pain
    Endless hate
    Can I true hold in?
    No emotion on my face is true all just a fake.
    I'm the young quiet girl
    Locked in a room corner
    Crying away silkently :blub:

    WHO DO YOU WANT ME TO BE :blub: ?
  2. flowers

    flowers Senior Member

    Abi, you do not deserve " endless pain". Even if it feels like you do. I promise I am right about this. You deserve whats good. Even though you do not know it. :pinkrose: :hug:
  3. Cute_Angel_Xx

    Cute_Angel_Xx Account Closed

    What is the meaning of good
    I have to be forever perfect
    Useless at fighting the battle
    Trying so hard to run away
    Escape from all the pain
    Rscape from all the trauma
    Endless pain endless fight,
    When will I die a painful death?
  4. flowers

    flowers Senior Member

    Abi, do you think it might be possible then to stop trying so hard to run away? Its aghausting to keep trying to run away. And honestly it doesnt even work. It brings the opposite results that people really want.

    I have yet to find a way to escape things. The way to heal it is to allow help. Even when it feels wrong. Even when ya want to run. Even when you want to kick and fight and hurt the self. The way out is to accept help. To let professionals help. I know that feels all wrong. But it is the way out.

    Trying to run and escape sadly only makes things more intrenched. Like tires that are stuck in the snow digging the car in further and further. The person needs help to get the car out. And help takes a lot of time. Its not a quick thing. Or another example could be someone stuck in quicksand. They need help to get out. The more they struggle the worse it becomes as time goes on. They must get help to get out.

    It takes time. Its a process. And its hard to not push the help away. Its hard not to run run run. Its hard to fight the huge urge to escape. But allowing the professional help will help. I know thats really hard. But you can do it. :hugtackles::hugtackles:
  5. Cute_Angel_Xx

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    I'm tired I'm fed up. I want to ggive up. :blub: I can't go on any more x
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