Meds have never helped me and they will never help me. I was supposed to see a therapist but they never got my fucking referral and no one wants to do anything about it. My fiance is ill, my cousins just died, various family feuds cracking off, facing the prospect of being forced to take leave from my course and my parents found out that I have been coming to this site amd wont stop fucking hounding me now. I cant physically talk or write down the things that make me hurt. No one is listening to me. I tried the whole getting help thing but it never worked for me. Why should I put in the effort when no one else is bothered? I dont want help now. I just want to die happy.